[4 Beautiful Words]

Today I had an auditions. It was for Chamber Singers.

I have a cold, and my vocal chords were swollen.

So I was nervous.

I mixed up the audition time with an audition I have next week and missed my time slot.

Luckily the girl who was running auditions gave me a call and a new time.

I ran across campus and arrived sweaty and coughing up a storm.

I was given a few minutes to rest and then was sent onstage.

I sang the piece as well as my poor chords would allow.

My auditioner came down after my piece and shook my hand and said:

"Welcome to Chamber Singers."

[Many prayers of gratitude were said on my way out. I couldn't have done it without the extra help. My testimony grows more and more every day here, out on my own.]

[Westmini]

Westmini....turns out thats the cool way around here to refer to Westminster.

Today was moving day. It started out to be a very emotional day; as was stated in the last post [haha]. But here I am...happy and with positive feelings toward this college experience. :) Who whouldda thought? Today I was met with several things that put my heart to rest. Here are just a few of the happy things that I discovered upon moving up to beautiful Sugar House.

#1 I HAVE MY OWN ROOM!!! Man, I don't know how I got so lucky to move into the upper classmen dorms but here I am....301A all to myself. I had no idea all of us would have our own rooms so this was a great surprise. I am a girl who needs her own space...and having a place where I can retreat to and have all to myself (with a door that locks!) is such a blessing.

#2 Great institute program! After I got here we went down to meet with the different organizations that are offered here on campus. Our first stop was the institue/student ward- so great! Everyone was so friendly and welcoming- what they say about the church is so true, you really do have friends everywhere you go. I am looking forward to getting involved with the ward!

#3 Theater Box Office Job! Well this isn't for certain....but its looking good. I qualified for Work/Study so that automatically puts me as first priority. I'm just glad I won't have to work fast food.

#4 Good Drinking Water! K, I know this sounds silly but I was pleasantly surprised when I took a drink out of the drinking fountain. Turns out all of the water on campus is "filtered and chilled." Score.

#5 Mailbox in the lobby! I was super excited about this; getting letters in the mail is my favorite thing! I am looking forward to writing and receiving letters for/from my friends on missions.

Thats enough for now. I will sleep soundly in my ikea bedset tonight. Love to you all!

[Goodbye]

I move on Saturday, so this week has been filled with goodbyes. I didn't think it would be this hard- I'm only moving about 30 minutes away...but it might as well be 300 miles. I have the most amazing friends and it makes me so sad to think about going to a school where I don't know a soul and leaving these amazing people behind. We will never be the carefree high school group of crazies again. Even though it is hard to watch us all go our separate ways I am so excited to watch my friends do some amazing things. I just hope that we are able to stay connected and in touch. Kara, Dallin, Rachel, Darren, Zach, (Elder) Spencer, & Amberly....I love you guys!

[I'd Give It All For You]

I had a house while you were gone

The week after you left me

I found a couple acres

Near Sarilla Park

I had a house while you were gone

A house with silver shutters

And a driveway laid in marble

And thousands of rooms to fill

And miles of space to fly

And I tried to believe it,

It was better without you

I was safer alone

No, I'd give it all for you

I'd give it all for you by my side once more

Oh, I'd give it all for you

I'd give it all to hold you again

To feel I'm completed

To know there and then

That all that I needed

Was you to fight the fear

And now you're here

I took a trip while I was gone

I cashed in all my savings

And bought an Eldorado

Drove to Tennessee

I took a trip while I was gone

I drove across the country

And I stopped at lots of diners

And stared at a million stars

And thought I could touch the sky

And I tried to believe it,

It was better without you

I was finally free

No, I'd give it all for you

I'd give it all for you by my side once more

Oh, I'd give it all for you

I'd give it ‘cause the mountains I climb

Get higher and higher

I'm running from time

And walking through fire

And dreams just don't come true

But now there's you

God knows it's easy to hide,

Easy to hide from the things that you feel

And harder to blindly trust

What you can't understand

God knows it's easy to run,

Easy to run from the people you love

And harder to stand and fight

For the things you believe

Nothing about us was perfect or clear

But when paradise calls me

I'd rather be here

There's something between us

That nobody else needs to see

There were oceans to cross

There were mountains to conquer

And I stood on the shore

And I stood on the cliff

And the second before I jumped

I knew where I needed to be

Oh, I gave it all for you

I gave it all for you by my side once more

Oh, I gave it all for you

I gave it ‘cause it's harder to touch

The things that are dearer

I love you too much

To trust something clearer

I know I fell too far

But here you are

[Expl]Ovaries

Warning: This post may (and most likely will) contain the words: ovaries, uterus, rupture & an assortment of other awkward female reproductive system words. I am warning you now if this makes you feel uncomfortable this post is not for you.

Back in February I had an ovarian cyst that ruptured. It was actually a pretty exciting (and painful) adventure.

[For those of you out of the loop: a bunch of my friends were helping me answer my date for Sweethearts and I was suddenly on the ground in a ball crying due to a very sudden, very sharp pain in my lower abdomen. My dear sweet friend Kara drove me and my car home and my very strong and manly friend Darren carried me into my house where I was rushed to the ER by my parents. At 3:00am after a blood test, CT scan, 2 Ultrasounds, and a urine sample they concluded that I had a very large cyst that had just ruptured. They sent me home with some Lortab. The next day my wonderful friends came to visit and basically babysit me because I was pretty drugged up ("I'm not tired..."). I was out for about 6 1/2 days, again- I am so lucky to have such great friends who were so willing to come watch lame movies or play silly games- Darren, Amberly, and Kara.]

Anywho- so I've had some problems with cysts after that. This week has been one of those weeks. I started having trouble on Saturday (wilst on a date- no bueno). So finally I caved today and went to the butthead doctor--who basically called me a big baby and gave me some painkillers (HOWEVER- if I was being a baby why would he give me drugs..huh? HUH?). So my final word to you is this- boys don't call women big babies unless you have experienced years of menstrual cramps and all the not-so-fun stuff that comes with being a girl, you might just get a round house kick to the face. :) Loves!