[This is why I love him]

We were skyping on Christmas. He goes of camera and comes back on with this on and keeps talking like normal. I laughed way hard. I love you Chris!

[Thanksgiving]

So, I pretty much had the perfect Thanksgiving break. Some of my family was upset at not having the chance to meet my boyfriend, Chris...so I promised to post some pics of him/us on my blog for those not on facebook. Enjoy! ;)

Our first date :) We had a grass fight.

[My business is to create.]

I must create a system or be enslaved by another mans; I will not reason and compare: my business is to create. -William Blake

Life is not about discovering yourself, it is about creating yourself.

[Rethink]

You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. What you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover is yourself. -Alan Alda

Growing up in a dominantly LDS community, you never really have to question or wonder why we do what we do. Its possible just to obey by default and never think twice about it. Well, being here at Westminster...you can't really do that. As people ask me why I don't drink, or why I go to church every Sunday...my lack of response has shaken me. My beliefs make me happy, and I know its right...but I don't know why yet.

I guess I'm heading towards "knowing for myself" and "not relying on the testimony of others." To be honest, I'm excited to begin this new investigation of my beliefs, to acquire a deeper understanding and eventually more diligent obedience. Wish me luck and post any advice please! Loves!

[New Favorite Things]

-Big bowls of Malt O'Meal fruity pebbles

-Forum Firesides at the institute building

-James Dean movies (oldish favorite...but rediscovered this weekend)

-Jacket weather

-Letting my hair be natural

-Classical Singing

-Bachelor Pad (Monday nights on ABC)

-Spitfire Grill

[Risks]

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.

To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.

To reach out is to risk involvement.

To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.

To place your ideas, your dreams, before a crowd is to risk their loss.

To love is to risk not being loved in return.

To live is to risk dying.

To hope is to risk despair.

To try is to risk failure.

But risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.

Chained by their altitudes, they area slave, they have forfeited their freedom.

Only a person who risks is truly free.

-Author Unknown

[Shelby]

Its official.....the last of my auditions have ended...for now :).

This past week auditions/callbacks took place for the fall musical: The Spitfire Grill. It was a very different experience compared to high school auditions. In high school (usually) lots of people audition and only a few get called back. Here, there were a small amount of people who auditioned (my guess about 35 maybe 40) and I think there was about half the audioners got callbacks. Also, the cast size is the smallest I have ever worked with- 7 roles and 3 ensemble members. This was a very intimidating audition.

Callbacks were grueling- they went for about 3 1/2 hours. We had to sing several songs and read 5-10 scenes depending on the number of roles they were considering you for. I got called back for Percy & Shelby, so I was looking at 4 songs and 10 scenes/monologues. Long story short- I left callbacks exhausted & unsure. Everyone at the callback was really talented so I had no idea where I fit in.

So I've been waiting for an e-mail all weekend...and nothing has come. This morning I had pretty much given up...But I did receive a phone call from the stage manager- I'll be playing the role of Shelby. The show plays Thursday November 11, 2010 through Saturday, November 20, 2010.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVzqPnxNLlQ (video of a duet I will sing in the show)